Psalm 139 ESV Part 2/2 A grievous way in me (620 words)
Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting
“I’ve told you! It Ain’t That Bad! Why should I change?”
God may reveal to us that our sin and our ability to sweep it under the rug is, unfortunately, an amazing skill we possess. We might ask and it’s revealed, only for us to turn a blind eye to it. Or worse, we see it and forget it! If we start down this journey, we must be bold enough to finish it. Sometimes, people we know who do something horrible or terrible. We hope they stop, but we don’t say anything and we’re too lenient on them because, well, they just don’t know. However, if they know and they continue to do it… how much worse is it?
Maybe you don’t believe in God (or you’re searching him out for the first time) and you prayed that God would search you because it’s a simple prayer. It’s not a hard prayer and maybe you’ve felt God say to you for the first time that he heard your prayer and He is near to you and is going to reveal yourself to you. That should be very encouraging but then you’re hit with all of these things you’ve done in your past that you’re feeling awful. That’s God giving you a new heart that feels the appropriate response towards brokenness and sinful and dark actions.
One pastor tells the story (forgive my memory at the moment) of a young college student who became a Christians and asked what he should be doing next. The Pastor encouraged him to read his bible. A month later the student makes an appointment to see him. “This thing isn’t working!!!” Not the response the pastor thought he was going to receive. So, he asked what happened? “The more I read this bible, the worse I feel about myself!”
The pastor smiled and said, “No son, it’s working perfectly.” See the student was expecting, now that he was a Christian, to hear only wonderful things about himself. However, God was revealing all the ways he was still not trusting and devoting his life to Christ and in doing so producing guilt and mourning over his life.
The last step of this first prayer is to ask God to lead us ‘in the way everlasting’. We have to have the courage to step out of our old ways of being and step into our new family, with our new nature, into new habits and behaviors. We look to God and mature Christians to inform us how we change our lives so that we devote more of it, every day, to Christ, putting to death the old you and feeding new ways of living. We have to have the courage to take new actions and change because we can no longer stay in the dark if we are of the light.
This is a dangerous prayer because your eyes will be opened and from that point on, there is no excuse to keep you from changing your behaviors to be more like Christ and a son/daughter of God. Search me, Show me and then help change me. You who are followers of Jesus have put your life aside and accepted Jesus as your Lord and savior. Therefore, put to death your old self and walk with Jesus in your new life!
Romans 6:4 “We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.”
So go and and walk in upright ways, everlasting. Turn from sin and turn to Jesus.
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William ConLead Pastor
William has been the Lead Pastor of
Parkland Community Church since Nov. 2018